Crazy

So, recently, someone I love dearly, looked me in the eyes and told me I “could be on Xanax, to make the voices stop.”

As far as facing your worst fear, this wasn’t too bad.

As I’ve begun sharing more and more openly about my self and my “inner world”, I have become increasingly afraid that people would think that I’m crazy. I realized, after this experience, that I  dreaded those words like one fears being burnt at the stake. I was so anxious after finally hearing the words I had feared for so long, that I called a friend to ask if they can still commit you to an asylum without your permission. Does that still happen? (She said only if they can prove that you are a danger to yourself or society.)

As I have been moving through those fears, I have been coming closer to a feeling of peace, returning to my inner place of self-love. This thing I’ve been fearing only amounts to a few words and projected misunderstanding.

In that moment, I responded with something like, “Yes. People like me have tended to be viewed as crazy or mentally unstable. I don’t live in the same reality that you do. But I strongly believe that as people raise their vibration, they will begin to experience reality like I do.”

This is another opportunity for me to walk my talk. I will continue to believe in myself and my heart, to stay in the moment, and to choose the most loving action as much as I can.

Here’s a video I made, in 2010, that I think is relevant now. Life is not linear, though we are currently experiencing it that way. I’m circling back now, to these same issues, and doing my best to continue my process of letting go of expectations, releasing limitations, and choosing the wildness within my heart.

New Radio Show

Join me on Thursday Feb 23
for the first episode of my new online radio show Twin Flame Heart Openings on Delight Conversations.

I will share the gifts and insights from deep connection with my Twin Flame.

For now, my Beloved will not be co-hosting with me, perhaps he will in the future. I will share the voice of our hearts.

Episodes will have stories from our lives or other lives, messages from our hearts or perhaps from the Master Couples we work with, and energy transmissions from our bonded hearts.

You can listen live streaming online here or call  (626) 213- 5627 to speak to me. If you can’t call but want to ask a question or request energy you can comment in the chatbox.

You will find more at http://twinflameheartopenings.com/

The Earth is A Safe Place to Live

I have received several emails from people wondering if the Telosians have left Earth and if there is some immanent disaster or danger coming to us. So many people are afraid of 2012, afraid of some secret governing force, afraid of what they’ve termed “dark” or whatever.

I attempted to address this question by asking Ashtar to speak on it, which you can read here, but I think a channeled message is not the answer. This is a topic that is dear to my heart because I feel so strongly about Trusting the Earth, our mother.

If you believe that we may need to leave the Earth because it will no longer sustain our lives, then you believe that the Earth will fail as a mother.

If you believe that events happen TO you, then you deny your power as a Godperson and you ignore the fact that your experience of life is the perfect expression of your Free Will.

Yes, some people throughout history have experienced painful, frightening experiences. Things like murder, abductions, pollution, greed, child abuse….. these things are illusions we can point to so that we may justify our fear. Yet they, like everything else, are our own creations. It stands to reason that if we created them we can uncreate them.

The real question here is not what will or wont happen, what is or isn’t “reality”; the question is:

What Are You Creating?

I used to cry and push against the weight of the world, I used to fear for my safety, I used to believe the government didn’t care about me, etc etc.  I thought that I would have to create massive world change in order to feel ok about bringing a child into the world, that I would have to change society, heal the Earth, etc. I’m sure I’m not the only one who has thought about the state of the world and despaired.*

Can you understand though, that those thoughts come from feeling separate from the Earth?

One aspect of my spiritual personal growth has been to deepen my FELT CONNECTION with the Earth, through my feet, my root chakra, my heart, and my mind.

Just as you are an expression of the Divine, you are an expression of the Earth. Where did the food you ate come from? Where did the clothes you wear come from? Where did the paper used to make the money you spend come from? Where did the elements that build your body come from? Where did the proteins and carbon and calcium and phosphorous and zinc come from? The water in your brain?

The Earth has perfectly provided every moment of your life, of EVERY life you have had on Earth. If the Earth is polluted, its because she, in her god-nature, has chosen to allow it, so that we all (including herself) can learn from the experience. Do you really think that the oil spill happened without her permission? Do you really think the trees that have been cut down didn’t know that would happen?

If you believe that the Earth and her creatures can be harmed by us, you are thinking from your ego. You are imagining that the Earth is some small thing to be abused or protected. Trust me when I say, she knows what she is doing. I recently channeled Gaia on this topic:

I provide your every breath. The road you walk is made up of my body, as is the house you live in, the books you read and the computer you work on. Those are materials that come from me. Remember, when you touch your laptop, you touch me. Let your every day be [consciously] spent with me. You do not have to go to the mountain, though that is welcome. Remember and allow. . .

I forgive you. . . Have no shame [about the oil spill]. . . Please, forgive yourself for any harm humanity has done me. Remember I choose this. Nothing anyone has ever done has been without my permission. . .

If a mother has a child and the child one day has a fit of anger and pulls the mothers hair does the mother reject her child?

[And if the child takes her organs out?]

If the mother knows the child needs them, she freely gives even her organs.

Gaia is an intelligent, conscious being. She has chosen to journey with us, to create a perfect experience of becoming enlightened. Rather than fearing for your life or hers, why not try consciously “plugging in” to her. Ask her to show you her consciousness, her strength, and her determination to survive this ascension journey.

Remember, you are a GODperson (HUman), just as Gaia is. You have chosen this journey just as she has. If you believe that you can be harmed or have an experience without your permission, then you deny your nature as a powerful creator of your experience.

The time is now to consciously connect with your expression of Free Will. Free will means that you have the RIGHT to choose your experiences. You don’t have to be tossed around on the sea of illusion. You can choose what you want. What do you want? If you let go of your fears what do you feel in your heart, asking to be created?

I personally am learning to consciously engage with my freewill inorder to co-create my home and family with my soon to be partner. I am letting go of what remains of my fear and beginning to realize that I really can create whatever I want to create and that my creations can be beautiful gifts to the world.

Choosing to activate my free will to experience a life on Earth with clean air, healthy food, joyful lives, and loving experiences creates that on Earth for everyone else. I’ll say that again. By choosing to create a home with clean air, I heal the Earth’s air. I am helping her create a healthy environment for us by envisioning that it is possible.

Do you see how we can work together? Our dreams and creations blend together to create a powerful, beautiful existence. Why on Earth would you stay in fear, creating painful scary experiences when you could live in love, creating beautiful healing experiences for everyone who chooses to participate?

I believe that bringing my dreams into reality can be a gift that I can give back to my mother, the Earth. I dream of a world we all people touch Earth gently, with heartfelt gratitude. I dream of a world so far from the experience of fear, that our children cannot possibly understand that it once existed.

That’s the world I am choosing to create. What are you choosing?

 

*(I’ll be honest, I still don’t think the government cares or that voting works like its supposed to, or that working through existing systems can bring about the changes I want to see. I’d rather LIVE the changes I want to see and spread as much light as I can.)