Right now, I’m experiencing discomfort in my belly as old emotions and ways of being bubble to the surface, to be exposed and released. Right now, I’m feeling a need for tears, which I continue to ignore. Right now, I’m feeling alone.

The angels tell me I’m never alone. But I guess there are still parts of me that don’t believe in their existence, let alone everything they say.

This summer has been a rollercoaster of emotion and experience. I have plumped the depths of my experience and started to really look at my self, even the things I perceive as ugly. And the highs have be wonderful– moments of bliss, filled with the purest experience of trust and deep understanding of the perfection of life. Those moments stretch into an infinite future of perfect experiences, a future I can see filled with possibility and delight. Then, something happens to trigger a return to “reality”, darker emotions, and stagnant energy. Pain flares up, demanding I believe that IT is the truth of my existence.

How silly.

Why would I want to spiral downward into pain, fear, and hurt? It hurts!
It is so much easier and much more pleasant to release the charge around my experience of energy. It’s just energy. (Even as I write this the unpleasant feelings in my belly are abating.)

So, yes, today I felt sad. And that is ok. I let myself feel sad. I laid down with my rose quartz and Metatron and breathed through the pain in my heart until I forgot it had been there. And now, as my belly clamors for attention, I will acknowledge it and dive in. What do you need to be happy? I ask my self, my belly, the energy shifting.
Release, comes the answer. Give permission to leave: Energy I give you permisson to go with gratitude wherever you feel most comfortable. Bring in light. Metatron, I accept the white light of God’s Glory you offer. Is there more? Is there more?

Sometimes, it seems like there is always more energy to be processed. Always more to release and replace. It is my sincerest belief that we can and will get beyond this need to process and release. That some day soon we will simply live in that state of Bliss, of deep acceptance of the Truth that Love is everything.

So keep doing your work. Let the moments of bliss carry you forward until Bliss is all that’s left.