These past few weeks and months have been full of shifts and deepening of my personal life and my work. Those of you who have been following me for a while have probably noticed. Channelling has been getting easier and easier and I am being prompted to teach.

I am opening to allowing myself to receive gratitude for my work in the form of  donations and it feels so good to me. I often get compliments and comments from friends and clients on the purity of my channeled messages and the energies which come through me (lets be honest, I’ve gotten those kinds of remarks my whole life).

Yet I still constantly question myself and my work. Thoughts like: is this really valuable, maybe I should get a “real” job, I should provide better for myself. I can’t keep depending on other people. Is my work really pure? Are the messages coming through me clean and clear? Can I really do this? Can I work hard enough to be successful? I can’t keep coasting through life. I should mediate more, heal myself more, be more perfect. . .

I am being asked to trust RADICALLY. I thought I was already, but I find myself at yet another precipice. Yet another time for faith. I have managed to trust through the flurry of doubt within me and keep taking steps forward.

People ask me questions and expect that I know answers. Luckily, I can tune in to the Masters easily enough and they generally answer through me, which is really a relief. I am grateful. Most recently, I felt prompted to suggest a client channel for herself (the Masters are prompting me to encourage everyone to do this…). She replied, “I would want to be certain of what was coming though me.” Of course she would. Any person of integrity wants that. I replied something blasé like, “I understand that.”

I have a friend who constantly asks me about the purity of other channels… I feel uncomfortable but attempt to answer. I can understand that too. I have read messages from various channels and beings that did not resonant with my relationship with that being, messages that were disharmonious with my expression of truth. Yet, truly, who am I to say what, or whom, is clear or not clear?

I, myself, am not always 100% clear.

Let me explain a little what happens when you channel and what it means to be “clear”. There are numerous ways to channel information; some people are “possessed” by the spirit who then speaks through them, some people perceive things with their 3rd eye and then share what they see/hear/experience, some people look inward and receive messages from their innermost heart…

I prefer to blend my energies with the Light Being I am speaking with. This is a much more direct experience and rather healing for me. Sometimes when I write a channeled message, Adama will blend his hands with mine as I type. When I speak, our throat energies blend. When big messages and energies come through, there is a whole body blending, which lifts my vibration and brings feelings of joy and delight. Every time I channel, I focus on blending my heart energies with the master that I speak for, so that the messages are coming through our purest connection. I retain the ability to think and control of my body.

We are still working on ascension. We are still living with our karmas and the energies of the world we have lived in. Wonderfully, all these things are shifting, as we collectively raise our vibration. But we are still affected by what has not been shifted, or “cleared” yet. So, your perception is affected by your energies and experiences. You can think of this like a lens. If you were harmed by men, for example, any man you see, you see through the lens of that experience. He may appear bigger and scarier and meaner than he is. You may be less likely to freely trust. Now, lets say you happen to be a channel. You know you had that experience, but you are unaware that you still have that lens though which you perceive the world. If you bring a message from a particularly “masculine” seeming being, lets say the Archangel Michael, you may filter your message through that lens, which you are unaware that you still have (how could you know? until it becomes blatantly obvious).  Perhaps when Michael’s message comes through that lens, you speak more sternly, you demand a particular choice be made. Perhaps your client’s heart closes in response to that hostility. Perhaps she feels stepped on and pushed around. But what is there to do?  Archangel Michael’s energy IS there still in the message, just tinted by the channeler’s own pain or karma or unawareness.

And yes, I am talking about myself.

I think the answer here is not to judge or reject the channeler or the message. Please treat us with compassion. Believe me when I say that I have strongly considered not channeling anymore. I don’t want to harm anyone with what comes through me. The masters discouraged that thought. I think the answer is instead this:

Healer, heal thyself.

Honestly, I’m not sure I could have noticed that energy, that lens, if it hadn’t been brought to my attention like that. I have since shifted that energy out of myself and hope my next channeling will be more “pure”. What else can I do? I am grateful for the incredible gift that person gave me in that opportunity to channel through that lens and see myself, my karmas and my pains displayed there for all to see. My vibration is that much higher now, and my ego that much smaller.

I have more compassion now, for the channels I previously thought were “impure”. I thought I was righteously angry for their impure messages and the harm they inflicted on their readers. Now I know, I think, why the master’s still speak through them, even through a tinted lens. That is what unconditional love is.

What does it mean to be pure? I don’t know. I lean on the unicorns and the Masters when I need to remember the vibration of purity. I feel a resonance deep in my soul, a harmony between our songs, when I focus on the vibration of purity. I know it is within me, my own unique expression of the Song of Purity. Everything else . . . . dirty blankets to be discarded with gratitude. I will continue to strive to let that song reverberate out from me.Thank you for listening . . . our songs blend in beautiful harmony:

The Vibration of Purity as expressed through the Ascension Journey.